Western medicine
Why it just wasn't for me and that is ok
Hopefully many of you reading this understand what is really going on in the American health system and how western medicine is failing us. I had been failed on numerous occasions and experiences several medical mistakes and even a serious medical malpractice injury during child birth. I have not written about most of it but I will soon. Today I want to discuss vaccines and Botox.
Some of you will be immediately triggered and few will ask yourself why it is triggering. Many of you will relate and have already realized something is really wrong with the vaccine schedules for our children and these boosters they push to all of us at every appointment. You can not go to a new doctor, urgent care or a hospital without them asking if you have had all your shots. Even if you say yes, they then ask if you have had the covid shot? the booster? the tetanus. It is an obsession. But to those who are believers it is a necessity to keep everyone safe. Yet Americans have more sickness and disease then any time in history. New illnesses like POTS and different auto immune diseases are becoming more and more common. I remember in the 80’s when it was rare that a child had asthma.
After my TDaP injury, my entire health was failing. I was rushed to the hospital at 42 with heart attack symptoms. I had a 2 day stay in the cardiac unit. I was given glycerin, blood thinners and other meds. The symptoms from the meds were worse than the tachycardia and chest pain. My head felt like it was splitting open. I was diagnosed with supraventricular tachycardia, vertigo, shingles, fibromyalgia, chronic pain, depression, anxiety, chronic cough, Inducible Laryngeal Obstruction (ILO), severe shoulder pain and chronic fatigue all within that first year of getting TDaP. I spent a year going to many specialist, getting tested, some test included dyes and radiation, I was prescribed anxiety meds, anti depressants, steroids and antibiotics. I only felt worse, never better. I had zero relief.
When I was seeing an orthopedic surgeon for the severe pain in my shoulder (same arm the shot was given) I had a CT and he decided to try a cortisone shot. Within 5 minutes of this shot I had paralysis on the entire left side of my body. This lasted for 2 days. I was told it was a rare reaction. I had never had allergies or an allergic reaction prior.
When I took the nuclear stress test at my cardiologist I was injected with a radioactive substance (Thallium) and I collapsed and had a seizure. I later found out how toxic the injection is and it is lethal in a higher amount. My body could not handle this.
Time and time again I looked to western medicine for answers but I was given more illness. When I tried to talk to the specialist (every single one) I would get gaslit. They acted like the vaccine and medications could not have caused any of the issues I was having, They would often try to order another test or prescribe me a new medication and even try to convince me it was anxiety or depression. What was crazy to me is when I researched the side effects and tried to talk to the doctors they would all say well that is rare or in the case of getting the stress test they said, you get a very low amount. 😳
I definitely had anxiety but I started to wonder if it was induced by all the test, medicines, appointments and how I was feeling sick all the time.
When I would try to talk about the vaccine being a source of my issues I was shut down immediately. Not just by doctors, but friends and some family as well. But I knew that I was never sick prior to that. I had no issues. I was healthy, full of energy and had never had a racing heart or chest pain. I had never had vertigo, I had never has shingles, I had never coughed chronically and had never had muscle pain through out my body.
It seemed like the symptoms of the vaccine injury were so easily passed off as symptoms of another medical condition.
Take the SVT (supravantricular tachycardia) I was medically diagnosed and told I needed beta blockers. I was told I would be on them forever. You also can not just stop taking them as your body becomes dependent. This was so frightening for me at 43. So I sought out natural path doctors. Today, I have zero SVT symptoms. I take zero medication. So that healed. I healed that. My body healed that.
The Vertigo. I also sought out a natural remedy. I went to a physical therapist in Bend Oregon at Rebound Therapy who specialized in vertigo. I no longer have vertigo. We healed that. My body healed.
Fibromyalgia I was told there is no cure. They can manage the pain with medication and put me on anti depressants. Those medications and depressants have a huge list of side effects as well. I declined and treated my ailments naturally. Today I have no chronic pain, no issues sleeping, and no fatigue.
Inducible Laryngeal Obstruction (ILO) I believe I also had a reactive airway as well. This has gotten way better but I am still trying to heal my cough and breathing. It has been a lot better in the last few months however when I got a cold in December the coughing has flared up.
After I got the TDaP shot and was hospitalized for my heart racing and chest pain. I got a cold maybe a month or two later. I had never been sick like that. The cough I had never went away. I think the vaccine had not only given me a form of pertussis but I also got botox. I began having a difficult time swallowing. I believe this was from the botox. The cough and swallowing had become so bad I went and saw a Pulmonary specialist in Bend Oregon. He ordered several lung function test be done. This is where things for me changed. As I sat in a glass chamber (you are in a clear box enclosed) and they started the test, I was told they would be releasing a gas inside. My gut said NO. I asked what the gas was? They said it was to test my lungs. It was a carbon monoxide. I was already struggling so bad with shortness of breath and coughing. I told them to stop the test. The two techs seemed bothered with me for stopping the test. I asked how breathing in a poisonous gas was going to be ok for me? The tech could not answer. I asked if any complications could occur? He again did not know. I refused the test.
The image above contradicts itself. Stating PFT is safe in “general” and there are NO COMPLICATIONS. Then states “There is some potential harm”
After a year of searching for answers, seeing many specialist and numerous testing, having reactions to what was put in my body, this type of inconsistency and feeling like I was being shuffled from one doctor to another and getting sicker, I made the decision to walk away and find my own answers. It was the best decision I ever made.
The first two years were difficult. I won’t say it was easy. The detox was painful and I was sick often. Changing the way I was conditioned to think was hard. Understanding that being sick was my body purging what needed to come out was also hard to believe. I was taught sickness was bad. I had to learn to understand sickness was my body removing what was toxic in order to heal. The hardest thing for me was the way I was treated and misunderstood. By doctors, nurses, friends and some family. People did not believe me when I talked about the TDaP correlation, when I talked about the Botox making my eyebrow droop and making it hard for me to swallow. (the swallowing fully healed when I no longer did Botox) When I had the reaction to both the stress test and the cortisone, I told other doctors after and they did not believe me. When I choose to not return to western medicine and I committed to healing my own body naturally I was shocked how unsupportive some people around me were.
I had someone tell me my cough would lead to lung cancer. I had others ask me why my cough was not healing quicker. If I had a dollar for every time I was told to just go se a doctor I would be rich. Filthy rich.
When I did heal my vertigo, fybro and SVT those same people did not acknowledge the healing. Instead some doubled down on the coughing. Focusing on what I was still trying to heal instead of what I had healed.
I think people are uncomfortable with what is not familiar. They are also uncomfortable with going against what is normalized. If you tell someone you do not do well checks or go to a doctor when you are sick many will immediately label you in their head as a science denier, anti vaxxer or hippie. When the pandemic started this labeling was even more established against those who had survived medical injury. People did not listen to those who had been injured they attacked them. This made me so angry. I was angry for a longtime. Then I was sad. The hurt I had from being misunderstood grew into depression. I allowed myself to feel all of this. Angry. Sad. Hurt. Depressed. Alone. I felt like I had hardened. I hardened against a society that shut me out. That misunderstood my words. A society that labeled me. I wrote about it. ALOT. For me. The words I wrote helped me understand and process it better. I recently started to soften. Some days I still feel hardness in my heart towards what happened but most days I am softer about it.
I think we all are really in the same space. Wanting the same things. Love, Happiness, Health, and Acceptance. Somehow we all started getting divided and many misunderstood. The more divided we become, the lonelier we will feel. So I am changing my thoughts about it. If someone does not understand my medical choices, it is ok. If I do not understand theirs, it is ok too. Each of us have our own path and journey. I celebrate mine now. No matter the roughness of it, it is mine. It made me stronger, it made me wiser, and it helped me find true meaning and purpose. I hope to continue to learn and share my experiences so others can heal too. Life for me going forward will look like this. I was lucky to have people guiding me and I hope to guide others as well.
Comments below are always welcome❤️ I love this community we are building and am always here to chat.